I’m a writer, narrative editor of nervous systems, and creator of the Axis Alchemy Method™.
I work with people who’ve done the work and are still stuck in the same loop.

I’m someone who went to the edge of every map trying to find “balance.” I swung between sobriety and self-destruction, science and mysticism, discipline and “fuck it,” believing balance meant eternal peace, good vibes only, and never being “triggered.” I did the whole tour—meditation, breath work , dogma, ritual, neuroscience, 12-step, shadow work, mentors telling me to “just make better choices” as if chronic relapse was a character flaw instead of a nervous-system pattern. I knew all the tools, yet I felt "futureless."

So I stopped chasing the perfect method and started listening to my own internal code: the story my system was quietly writing about what comes next. Today, I am a memoirist, a perpetual student, and teacher: a narrative editor learning, over and over, how to stand at the axis instead of swinging forever.

My work lives where science, mysticism, and street-level recovery overlap. I help people who’ve “done the work” and are still stuck in the same story see what their nervous system actually believes about the future—and then redesign it. I built the Axis Alchemy Method™ to work with three things at once: your System (the survival hardware), your Story (the script you’re living inside), and your Signal (the part of you that still wants more, even if you’ve stopped admitting it out loud).

Axis is the fourth piece—the state of authentic alignment where System, Story, and Signal finally line up. Not permanent zen or 24/7 regulation, but creator mode: a liminal space where you stop dragging your past forward and start building from what’s actually calling you.

—Ashley Carter Cash

I write openly about addiction, mental health, shame, and the nervous system. The same brain that dissects my own loops on the page is the one that sits with clients and helps them rewrite what happens next.

The O Files is where I write like a depth psychologist with a punk rock attention span. It’s longform, weird, and devotional to the big questions: consciousness, narrative, addiction, archetypes, myth as a map, the nervous system as a storyteller. If you want essays that bend scripture, science, and street-level recovery into one continuous thought experiment, start here.

Disorderly Content is my open nerve. Raw memoir, diary-style posts, social commentary, fragments, and things I probably should have waited to publish. It’s less “finished essay,” more “live transmission from inside the experiment.” If you want to see the loops, relapses, revelations and revisions in real time, this is the drawer I don’t organize.

Selected essays, features, and commissioned pieces—on my own platforms and out in newspapers, magazines, and other outlets. Addiction, mental health, culture, narrative, recovery, and the human condition in fully built form. You’ll also find the archive of my first blog, #parentingSLACKS—no longer updated, but still alive as the origin story of my voice as an essayist.

How reward circuitry, attachment, and stress shape our choices long before “willpower” gets a vote.

Jung, archetypes, and the stories we unconsciously cast ourselves in and then call “personality” or “destiny.”

The part no credential can fake: living through the wreckage, getting honest about it, and building something new without pretending the past didn’t happen.

12-step, contemplative practice, ritual, and the ongoing work of repair, surrender, and acceptance.

I didn’t arrive at Axis Alchemy because I woke up one day enlightened. I got here the long way: through addiction, relapse, recovery, homelessness, rebuilding, and the slow, humiliating work of watching my own patterns on repeat.

Along the way, I became a permanent student of how humans actually work. I’ve spent years inside trauma recovery, 12-step rooms, and nervous-system education, and just as many years testing that theory against real life—my own and other people’s.